I’d go at odd times, mostly daytime, and work while having a drink. I couldn’t ignore that he was gorgeous but I learned that I also really enjoyed being around him. As opposed to Eric who is pissed off about something (politics, mostly) all the time.ģ p.m. Jesse and I haven’t discussed getting busted by Eric yet. I can tell he doesn’t want to go there and is totally not interested in drama. I don’t want him to look at me as the girl who blows up lives, so I try to downplay everything. “That was crazy,” I say, trying my best to look hot and chill. And then we really start talking about everything. I tell him that Eric and I have big problems but that I don’t want to give up on us. I know Eric is still debating leaving me over this, so all I can do is wait. I want Jesse to tell me he has feelings for me, and to leave Eric no matter what happens, but he toes the line. I take his diplomacy as a sign that he isn’t interested in being with me in any real way. Of course I want him to beg for my love, but he’s kind of not a real person. We talk about work and paying rent and the presidential debate. I take a chance and say, “Love you,” at the end of the call. Getting coffee to bring up to work, feeling really anxious. It’s been so many days with my relationship up in the air. I just want Eric to come home so we can really talk.Ģ p.m. He gives me a really big hug, even though he really shouldn’t. I would have loved to fuck him that night. What are these feelings supposed to mean? Is it normal to want to sleep with someone else when you have a serious boyfriend? Is this a sure indication that Eric is not right for me?ĥ p.m. When I’m done with work I head to Jesse’s bar - I’m meeting a friend there. I work off my laptop and drink white wine while I wait. My friend has a big personality, and I’m kind of shy, so I look forward to her asking Jesse the questions I’ve never had the courage to ask.Ħ p.m. Three glasses of wine in, I’m pretty drunk when my friend arrives. By the time her first glass of wine arrives (from Jesse, who is really enjoying us being there), I’ve filled her in on everything and she is convinced I need to have sex with him tonight.

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